heaven is reali mocking at me. the person i need to see all this long decides to ignore me for no darn reason. wat did i do? heaven despises Man, and its true. for the person who understands, u shld noe who the hell am i tokin abt. that person. well, if this person decides to do so... i guess its no choice. i respect ur decision, although reluctanrly. if i did something wrong, pls tell me. dun leave me in the dark like that. hate it. sigh.... this is a note to the person who UNDERSTANDS this post. i give up. u told me to change my 'choice' but this 'choice' is somehow... wierd.

well irritating day tis is. work and more work. sigh... are holidays meant to rest or to do more work? i am bewildered... somehow, i jus feel myself tearing apart. y? wats causing this torment? god noes.... well well. this person i shall see y... sooner or later. i will ask u until i get my answers. play. work. love. life is colourful. but y do i feel such pain?

sigh... wat do we live for? play? work? live? my sis says that its to learn. all i noe that i am learnin that life is like tides. high or low. times are good and bad. i am through bad times, and it seems that its here to stay. how i wish i could see my own future. wats happening next? god noes...

i jus hope i can talk to u again. well... i kinda miss that life. hearin ur voice, echoin in me.

bye bub. for that person: stay gold