ok. this sounds bad to me. but i really have to thank my 1st confidant. and i really mean it. not sacarstic. thanks for u told me wat i am now. its too wrong to be true. now as wat i see... i feel its right. i should change. i am so darn wrong. i will say out loud now: i shall be wat i was in pri sch. nothin abt the heart but all of the mind. now there are no eneemies but all shall start from the beginin. if i ever stray from my path pls any 1 feel free to tell me. its like givin me a slap after i am unconcious or watever it is spelt. i can only say sorry for those that i hurt accidentaly hurt in the past. i am truly sorry. i dun ask for ur forgiveness but for ur understandin. i am a bit too rash.

my past is plagued by wat i did. i carn believe myself that i did all those. to my 1st 2nd and third confidant: i hope u 3 will give feedback. not a must... jus a request form ur friend if u treat me as 1. i will change... it starts all form this minute onwards. i am guilty of my mis-doings. do not blame my 1st confidant. its aint his or her fault. without him or her... i will still be in the dark and unaware of wat happened.

dun blame any 1. for this i am of to be blamed. no 1 else. for those who care: i am not sad. really. i am more guily. so... dun feel sympathetic for me. feel for those i hurt. not trying to put a strong front but i started it, i should end it. its only right. not sayin i will be a total good boy, jus hope that time will cure everything.

this is the last day. and the last note to her: i give up not because i really give up. i jus feel i did many things i should not have done. i jus want to let u noe this. i hope u understand. even i gave up... hope u will not treat me as a complete stranger and lend me your support not as 1 i liked in the past but as a friend.

this is the longest post. cause its not about wat happened. its a reflection. i jus hope things will change for the better. when will i be back as wat i am now? i dunno. jus wait and see...


hey back from POP. totally tired but fun. screamed my throats out.so nice and fun.bbq was nice. 9 outta 10!!!! haha.so fun. aiya dun tok abt the bbq. back to the future...

class outing to the sentsosa.mayb goin. wanna see gid again...haha. wonder how will it be? nigel defences... haha. o well. hope it comes out ok and nicely nice.haha. so nice la....

o yea did i mention i saw a nice sunset? got black, blue, light blue, green, yellow, and orange. spectacular. did not noe a school got sunsets.was actually presentin cake to the ex-NCOs. then i looked up and saw the sunset.then they all gathered and i jus stepped back... watchin it from far. too bad i did not have a camera to take it down. when i saw that... i suddely felt so much 'enlightened'. many things that do not see so nice from far... jus wait. there is a beautiful sunset at the end of every gloomy day. as i watched it... i was wishin the whole 2e1 was there.... the view is jus too nice.

haha. my crest is being seasoned now. welll slp first. tired like hell.

hey... bye bub. remember there is a rainbow after a storm and a sunset at the end of a gloomy day.

back to bein a witch


hey bub back again. guess this will be my last before the tests start. back next week so dun bother me to update. have been totally bored cause there are no games... mus buy new ones.o yea thanks to my sis for buyin me shoes!! love them! o well..

hey the clan ppl of 2e1... go bother my bro. he is stuck on maple which totally is lame and then i want to dl gunz... follow the good old gang. he is totaly mesmerised by that. hell.... and my ps2 desperately needs new games. any1 have old ps2 games pls lend me... i am wastin my time on old ones. o yea yc at comics connection there is splinter cell and TEKKEN 5 on ps2... too bad i am out of cash. or i will trash u with ah wang...

o well. got homework to do... will be back. i am macbeth... i will be evil... or i already am. i tink i will be wearin yc coat for the macbeth thingy. jonathan the mad witch...lol. bb the great banquo..... justin the bo chap witch, yc the weirdo... i dunno wats gonna happen in our play. speakin of play... i miss the outsiders... with the great rumble and mostly... the mustang!!!

o well. i got to go and do my stuff. bye bub and stay gold for that special some1 out there maybe waitin for u.

MACCHICKEN AND DUCK.


well back guys. today nothin special happen. jus tat my hair somehow exploded? fixed it finally. i swear i will never have this again. omg... today totally scolded by 2 teachers. first was mr ang. cause i forgot there were chinese underneath the table.... then i tio scolded. second was mr quek. i and confidant no 3 kx tio.... jus of shit.... haha. write an essay on shit.... how? defination? lol.

have any of u guys ever wonder wat will happen 10 years down the road? will any of us still keep in contact? doubt. mayb i may become yc's boss in the future.... or bb's employee... or even jonathan's colleague. hmm... if i could see the future... o well. dream on. jus carry on wat we r doin now.

wat else... lets think...

o yea no np tis sat. good. o well guess i will be off now. jonathan: ur pic so big... haha.

bye bub... cyah and stay gold.
SALA DRIFTING OFF....

MGS DOWN ACCEL OFF DRIFT ACCEL


hey sick again. to all those who hate me: say congratulations. went toilet exactly 6 times.... lucky i went to the doc and she gave me some carbon tablets. hell.... i hate being sick. why must there be sickness in this world? jus the thought of it turns my stomach.... no not again! hey be right back....

Omg.... i jus hate it. wonder can i take pe tomorrow. i found that i n bb are very similar... haha. mayb we were cut out to be buddies. like wat he likes to say: STUPID! haha.... o well. todays art was not bad. jus realised a ps1 rpg that i played. thax yc for refreshin my mind. its wild arms 2. haha.... go check that out... lol.

o well... tmrs school. have np on wed, fri and sat. o well... but fri is the real trainin. the other 2 days are sports. wed is touch rugby, and sat is some challenge... hell. next week i am goin to be dead flat. jus go check it out... lol.(from jonathan's blog)

o well... stop here. did not do my work! mus go chiong....

bye bub....

Sa La Driftin off......

MGS DOWN ACCEL OFF DRIFT ACCEL....


my grandmother's leg is ok now. so is my dad. hmm... kinda wonder if my parents are ok.. i am not. o well. in 1s life mus learn to forget and look to the future. but will mine be? i have no idea... o well. today me bro went out.. he is always goin out. but i am always stuck here. wah sian. tmr goin mr b's hse to do art. shhh... surya goin to. hell piece of shit. o well...

i am so bored. mus buy ffx fisc... mine carn load. so did not play the first part. so nice la.. too bad i onli played x-2... not the first. the only other ff that i played was ff9. zidane so shuai.... he rocks man. hmm... all the shuai guys are: ZIDANE, TIDUS, WAKKA... then all the chio ones are: YUNA, GARNET. lol. ffx rox. mus thax square soft....

lol. jus realised i play lots of rpg. lets see.... ffx, x2, star ocean is ps2. ps 1 is crono cross, ff9, grandia... so nice man. o hell.... i play too much. nxt mus buy initial d on ps2. y am i saying too much on games? pui.....

o well.... gettin too bored. mum's warned me not to fail my streamin... or i will die... so sad. so now mus only bother abt streamin... others, i jus either delete or let them remain as memories. have many questions but no answers... wonder shld i wear costumes for racial harmony day... have no indian, malay, chinese. only got that wat i wore for drama competition. tats europian? i wonder....

jus realised tis is my longest post. reali. jus changed my skin. give me comments! o yea must thanks anthea for helpin out.(ex class mate)

bye bub.... stay gold. make that special some1 happy today.

MGS DOWN ACCEL OFF TURN ACCEL


i am jus amazed how much he noes. i dunno... mayb i shld not said it in the first place. i am confused. mus guys always take the initiative?

today i am totally mad. i got 1 demerit for something that i did not even do! i am so angry! means i get 1 demerit for sitting beside kai xiang. omg.... i jus dunno wats happening to me...i am so confused. i dunno wats happenin.

the best was the debate. so unfair... i did not complete my sentence and that jonathan jus cut in. u see: no character develpoment... lol.

was in deep thought all the way from begining of sch until now. tmr's np is canceled. i jus want to go out and shout out all my troubles.... dun ask me anything. y must we make our choices in our life? sometimes its best to jus noe when its the time to let go and forget... but its wat i am not capable of.

o well.... bye bub. cya and stay gold.


MGS down accel off drift.....


jus dun ask me anything. i can blast my head off any moment. cause my grandmother is in the hospital. her condition looks ok but all the plasters and stuff on her hands i jus feel angry. kx, adriel and sam tan stop botherin me. u will never get the answers ok? the worst is the plaster on my grandmother's leg. 10 cm long ok? tats long. so jus shut up and dun bother me.

today went around. bought stuff and now sigh... after i seen my grandmother i have practically no mood man... hate it. no wonder bb and gang are better, they noe when not to ask. o well... eventually will be out so i dun give a damn. its over means over. only memories leave.

and jonathan stop saying ur the halo pro. cause u played it longer then i and yc. so stop that. if i challenge the whole class to dynasty warriors 4 i tink less then 2 will get pass me ok? wah... jus feel like exploding now. i jus dun have the freakin mood ok? give me a few days...

bye bub. dun ask anything. still... the inital d gang is the best... they give u freedom ok?

MGS down accel off turn accel up.


hey back again. better update my blog before more ppl gets the wrong idea. lets start off with today.

hmm.... when i came i was totally tired. two arms outta strength. then the usual gang did not do their history. sian man,, y carn they do themselves? o well... today i noe lots of stuff... dun probe any further. this does not concern me. o god, i lost my belt and stuff!!! looks like i got to go and buy my stuff. hope they sell!!!

today was kinda boring day. after sch i went home but the rooms are locked! how do i use? lucky my mum came to the rescue.. and then i went online all the way... weee!!!! -,-


then i decided. i am gonna do it. jus dun bother abt me. ok? jus hope me good luck. tmr goin macrichie...

bye bub. i shall be back.. but nt so soon. cause exams are comin...

bye bub. love net, cyah.

to bb: yea yea yea?


well well tis is the frist time i had np after so many months..... wah my back is aching... i mean my whole body. mus resist!!!!! cause its jus 1 more yr.... o well. today yc u rock. u jus fling that jelly in.... and jus zoomed in!!! wah lau eh...

let me tell ya, i hate my seatin arragement!!!! yet the ka said its good. my foot ah! so near to the front, with jefry beside me..... no freedom! sian... miss the days i was sitting with justin. at least i talked to her.... lol. jus dun ask me who the hell this person. sick and tired.

hmm bb joined the hip hop gang. i mean jelly. o yea the new game that bb is goin to create is so nice... to bad ya?

o well. i decided then i am goin to tell some 1 something at the end of this yr. i dun tell u. u will not even noe i tell u.

o well. bye bub. cyah and stay gold.



o yes as wat i always to in my previous entries: something that looks like chicken, and taste like chicken... yc u noe the answer!!


yesterday was the lit evening. sigh... we did not win which may be bad for the class but good for me... o yea ka made the bet true.. yay! she said "jonathan, i like u"!!!! lol. i and justin made her sy 3 times leh... so nice right? and then we watched the movie, coach carter. nicest part was when justin dunked jonathan's 'toot'...quite nice, but my whole body ached like hell. in the darkness i saw her, though not clear. dunno are we better or worse from before.

today is jy's bday. sry la... no presents but a happy birthday to u. sian... todays a bad day. starting fought with my bro.... wat an ass.... sian ar. when he uses the ps2 why carn he stick to it? still mus use the net at the same time... hate him.


aiya who cares. mus stay happy cause i was yesterday. jus hope wat the ka said was true. if it was then its good. if not... i am so depressed, but i never got depressed... lol.

o well.... bye bub. stay gold.


wa si ni lau pei.... to yc: something or some1, that has an old in it....