woah look at the time.... its 1.14. haha.... nvm. watchin bleach is a pushing factor for staying up late. but... today only watch from 59 to 64.... a lil disappointing. but nvm....

today's trainin. i shant comment on it. i dunno why... it seems tt many of us... are gettin more emotional. mabel and kc quarrelled even before debrief. each debrief seems to be more and mroe.... serious. each trainin, i have this feeling that our squad is breaking up... slowly bit by bit. is it because we are ncos? is it because of the peer pressure? is it because we are too concentrated on our own job scopes that we forgot our one for all, all for 1 spirit? i dunno. i reali dunno. our squad. i remember, when we were sec 2s, we were all so enthu, all so zai back then. team spirit, we were even proud when we were mere coporals or jr ncos. but when we advanced to ncos.... all these is gone. power struggle? i am confused. today, i did my part as a part councillor. i councilled 3 ppl today. 2 sucessful ones. the last 1, i dunno the results. but... no matter wad.

i dun care about what gold unit. i dun care about wad rank. i dun care about wad post. i just wan that old squad of mine back. those days, where we cared for each other, totally unlike today. or rather, this time. where have all the good days gone? all i can hope now is to ask all of them, to perservere on. dun give up. we, afterall, posses the unbeatable corporal strength.