tmr appointment parade. im so excited to the extent tt i feel like jus fallin sick and pon it


well weeks since i last blogged so kinda here to talk random stuffs. first, im really into anime. can stay up to 2-3 am no prob jus to chiong finish an anime. as i type, i jus finished 11 episodes of shakugan no shana... ow butt is burnin but well its all ok. also... im totally immersed into the melancholy of suzumiya haruhi. chao jus showed me a real cool vid... but when i ask yama to go watch he scared its hentai or ecchi and so he dowan watch... zzz i not as sick as he is but its really nice so if he dowan watch is his regret.

second is of course abt npcc. i can truefully tell u. i am sick of np. sick. wad are ranks. wad are badges. wad are sirs and ma'ams to me. they are jus a fleeting dream. some bastards out thr who tink tt they noe me and starts to criticise. for god's sake, dun talk as if u understand whn u urself din even experience. still come talk big in front of me. god... put urself in others shoes b4 u come talk. well to those np "ncos" frens of mine who still tink why am i so concerned over the promotion, i suggest u very well read this.

its impossible for u to imagine but just picture this. since sec 1 to sec 3 u have been givin it ur all to get a good post in np. durin the nco course ur hopes were very high. suddenly, aft the nco course, u noe ur post. its not a head. its not a sub head. its a post called admin and logistic memeber. ok fine maybe the CIs dun appreciate u. 1 las chance. with that thought in u, u and ur fren who is in the same fate as u, both of u go and give it all for logistic and admin. due to admin not requiring ur help, u spend more time at log. washing tentsheet. sweeping floor. mopping the floor. stockchecking. shifting boxes here and there. folding clothes and arranging everything. everything. u thought u actually did all u could for the log department. doin all these... jus to get a chance to have better post. 2007 sec 1 year head. aft the months of saikang, u thought that ur goal is just within reach. yea right. some bastard of a CI comes along at the end of the year and blames u, saying tt one of the reason tt u did not get promoted was cause u did not consult the deputy head. wad thrash. promotion. ok at least not the post. the rank. u go up on stage, and u took at a glance of whos gettin promoted. under staff and sergeant ranks, u did not get shortlisted. yet, u stood there, passing the rank to the TO, and the rank jus disappear in front of ur eyes.

and now jus before u pass out, they say tt u have a CHANCE of getting promoted. wads the use. u already gave up hope on being promoted half a month ago. every trainin to u is plain hell. doing things that wont benefit u wadsoever yet u still do it. for wad. and now at this point ppl come along and ask u, " y the hell are u so kan chiong abt promotion"

i will jus answer back," u were nvr in my shoes. tink in my shoes before u come talk to me." seriously. speakin of hypocrites.