HAPPY NEW YEAR!

is what i want to say but, no. i dun see the happy. just today, i was supposed to go to my uncle's house in the morning. before we left the house, my mom told me that my grandma, who was living with my uncle, went to the hospital to see her sister/adopted sister ( not really clear about the relationship. the older generations are filled with problems). apparently she had a bad fall, and she bled alot. by the way, she is mute and she lives alone. when she fell, she could not call for help, and the ambulance only came after a few hours when the neighbours called.

and so the plans for the day changed to praying at temples first. when we were en route to the last temple, my mom contacted my grandma. apparently, my grandma's sis passed away. in a matter of few hours. just because she had a fall. yes i may not be close to her, but every new year i see her, since i was a baby. although we did not communicate much, but she is still family. and she passed away.

i got scared. really scared. and more paranoid. i really do not want this to happen to my grandma. i prayed for her health, and that buddha may look over her, through the 6 years of my promise. even though im a free thinker.

恭喜发财? no. no more of that. the only thing that i will wish people now is 身体健康.